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It calls. It haunts my dreams. It disturbs my dreams, my sleep, my realm. MY REALM.
I was able to resist it once, I can resist it again. But why do the scars continue to draw on me? It is gone, with the Tree. But still it calls.

Mathis offered to remove the memory of its location from my mind. But will the calling stop? Do I want it to stop? So much power. So many possibilities. So much. For so little. One Hundred years of service. For Freedom.

No, no. I mustn't dwell on it.
I was able to resist it once, I can resist it again. But why do the scars continue to draw of me? It is gone, with the Tree. But still it calls.

Another journey, another near-death experience. The Family ventured into the Abyss, searching for Eric. I should have been more alert. How could I be ambushed? Have I been growing soft, with all of this time in Amber? I may have to return to Caernarfon again, to train.

While in the Abyss, we fought strange wolf-men. I may have to take something from their stances and tactics, they were quite formidable. They even seemed to have the ability to absorb the strength of their fallen comrades -- each becoming more dangerous than the last.

I met Titania today, wife of Oberon. She showed me... things. I find more and more that I am not nearly so adept in the Ways of Dreams as I might have thought. However, I can again learn from my weaknesses. This will not happen again. Titania gave me a Trump of herself. She offered to show me a better path. I must meditate on this. I have much to think about.

What do I want? Where am I going with all of this?

Merlin brought me to a party in Stormhold which was... eventful, to say the least. The family was there, which caused a bit of a stir. More tension between Sawall and Amber, but that was to be expected. How can Sawall hope to regain strength if it is constantly antagonizing past enemies? Dara is always stirring up more trouble than I fear Sawall can handle. I may have to speak to Merlin about this. I'd hate to see Sawall destroyed.

I found out Orias is in truth the Lady Kuru. Who else can I trust? So soon in Amber, and already so many plots uncovered.
Orias has been nice to me however, so I dealt with his (her?) would-be assassin. My only fear on the matter is any further actions by the Chaosian house of the assassin. I think I covered my tracks well...

Allerin has finally had his child, a girl named Jacqueline! She looks just like her father. This family becomes more complicated by the hour.

I had Merlin take me to Amber. Very strange place, on my first day I saw a creatures of the pattern attack a fellow Amberite while they stood in the Great Hall. I met many of my cousins, and a few aunts and uncles. I also met my father, sister and brother. It's a strange experience, living for hundreds of years without knowing your immediate family.

Corwin seems to be a nice man, we had a chat over a few bottles of wine. He showed me his Universe, The Origin, and introduced me to my brother Allerin and my sister Riselka. He mentioned some trouble in the Origin, I may have to help out as soon as this business in Amber is settled. I'm not really sure what's going on, but there seems to be a divide splitting apart Amberites into factions. I'm going to need to find out more, before I commit myself to anything. I'm already treading on dangerous ground, it seems. If things get too bad, I may have to return to Earth for a while.

The Lady Amarisa held a party in Amber, it was quite enjoyable. I met many new people, and though it ended badly, I still enjoyed myself.

A few of my cousins and I decided to make a brief trip to Forest Arden in an attempt to find the Unicorn. While we didn't find her, I had a nice walk with Lady Amarisa and discussed a few matters. I may be able to reclaim some land, as Corwin suggested.